the fear

of being relegated to western career college and living out a mediocre life style scares the hell out of me. Does it? Money isn't everything. No, it's not, but continuing to hold myself back for the sake of (FEAR) would not be satisfying in the least. I'm sitting here waiting for my ha's shift to start thinking about coke and cigarettes and gambling. Wondering about the possibility of creating my own video channel in the future.