Just had to pick my mom up from the restaurant

she seems to have this false sense of confidence in the face of extreme turmoil. she's still professional in her work life, even though my father keeps disappearing. i should listen to manli, it's not my fault in the least, it's completely my moms choice. nevertheless, im helping out this weekend, which is alright. i should stop bothering manli about that last 500 for the laptop she's buying me. it's all a scam to pay off my student loans anyway. i bought a replacement screen for my lenovo instead of the macbook.

is my brain power diminishing? perhaps. i hardly read, i havent been playing music, ive been smoking pot all day. mom asked if she should get q10 vitamins for me "you need brainpower to write", bundled with abunch of other vitamins most notably grape seed. i got mad at her for asking me if i would be alright my 7k savings balance flashing before my eyes. my friend rebecca with the two kids cant afford to pay off a lot of things herself, and doesnt have any income either. at least im finished with my bs degree. ill be fine. im just so worried about them mom doesnt even know how to use a computer correctly and my father feels like he's on the verge of death, crashing in the worst way possible. i tried to deposit at doyles room today and luckily they turned me away saying i had problems with other sites, which is true. im tired of the gambling lifestyle. i wish id pick up my guitar more often...

things to do:

get a hard guitar case

-call bet us/figure out bgroom stuff-

one last load of laundry

-get together everything and PACK IT

anything else? lunch with caila? go see jess?QUIT SMOKING AND START P90X AND make a video, or keep the notebook around...

--BACKUP A FEW NOTEBOOKS IF YOU ARENT DOING ANYTHING TOMORROW

4:30PM WORK

perhaps an open house on monday

mom told me steve thought i was going to the chinese mafia i thought he was gona ripe on me for being a writer. pah. awriter