was MIA from work for a few days smoking weed and doing coke. Just did some stretches missing how it felt to exercise every day. Mom just told me to not eat as much and I told her I have an overeating problem which is absolutely true. She says shes fifty and is allowed to be fat. I don't want that attitude when I'm 50. I don't want that attitude right now, I've become lazy as hell. It isn't even the lack of musical practice that's bothering me, or the fact I haven't been social at all. I just need to get the fuck out of here and experience something completely new. I'm tired of this yuppie suburban BORED AS HELL lifestyle